I was on a roll. I was blogging everyday. I was feeling good about it. There were cool things I wanted to add to the site. And then…

Nothing.

Absolutely nothing.

It made me think about the pressure I felt to keep blogging. I was having fun, but apparently there was a little bit of me that felt pressured into keeping the blog train going. Why else would I feel a little upset that there hasn’t been a blog post in a few days? And it’s not guilt. I don’t feel guilty that I’ve not written. I have some readers here, but it’s not like I have a million member army or a ton of paying subscribers. I write for myself.

And yet, I do feel a little upset with myself for not blogging these last few days. And I think that I could have fallen into the trap of blogging just for the sake of blogging. Nonsense posts for nonsense reasons. Would that have been bad? No, maybe not. But it wouldn’t have been necessary. It would have been peer pressure from my own damn brain. It would also have been filler. Like that person who has to talk to fill up the silence just because they can’t bear to not hear something.

I did feel the need to come on here to blog about the lack of blogging going on, so maybe this post too is a bit of filler. But this feeling is interesting. The blog was never meant to become an obligation. If I never post on here again, there’s nothing wrong with that. If I post 10 times a day, that’s okay too. It’s going to come and go in spurts, and the feeling inside that says “must push out content”, must be ignored.

I think this effects me because of the YouTube channel. On there, with a much larger audience, I’d have a much harder time going many days without posting. That does feel more like a job. And while I like doing YouTube, I never really want that feeling to be associated with my little personal blog.

I’ll say what I want to say, but I’ll refrain from saying things when there’s nothing to say. Good grammar is my gift to you for that last sentence, wowza.

Anyway, I have nothing more to say, so I’ll go back to work.